For me....for them....

As the title suggests, this blog is for me, but also for them....

Them....

my daughter

my husband

my future posterity

my family

For me, a means to document my feelings, my frustrations, without judgement from anyone but myself. I need this for me! I can usually talk to my husband about anything, but there are times when I don't need answers, I just need to vent and express without judgement or a quick fix. this is it....my time....

I'm sitting at work, it's almost 3 a.m. and really right now, this is a way for me to stay awake. I was thinking about goals and what I want to accomplish. I'm 31, almost 32 years old, who am I? what have I done with my life and where do I want to go? The world is a scary place right now, but its also beautiful and there is so much I haven't seen or done....

I've heard that the best way to accomplish your goals is to plot them....

plotting....short term....

In the next year? For me? Become healthier....this means, yes, losing weight, but also becoming more fit! I want to be more than anything, a good example of this for Halle and for my future children. I need to eat better, exercise more, sleep more, all while working full time night shifts. UGH! I am happy to keep doing this so that Chris can finish school, with the thought in mind that it won't be forever....I hope! I would love to have more children eventually, but for now, I can focus on making me better. So here it is....continue weight watchers online, but I really need to study and focus on nutrition. I can do this! I'm not meant to be the chubby girl! I can lose the weight! I need focus, determination, drive, motivation, energy, and above all education! So, this is for me....for them!